Ghosts of the Past
A lot of us are familiar with the phrase, 'ghosts of our past', ie, regrets in life or moments we wish we could forget. Thanks to modern communication, there are a lot more of these for teenagers and on occasion more difficult to get rid of those ghosts.I refer here to text messages and photos that we store on our mobile phones.
I bring this up because I recently had to go back to using an old nokia phone for one of my numbers as my smartphone had conked off, and it was from the pre-whatsapp days. Now, a lot has changed in my life since I last used that phone and I had forgotten the treasure trove of memories it was. It started with the boot up photo of an old love interest of mine, from the school days. I then was going through the message inbox, and saw hundreds of stored messages between me and my ex, from when the days were good, life felt complete and the world made sense.
As I glanced past the long list of messages, I could not help but feel a pang of pain of loss as I had near the time of parting. I hadn't felt that it in a long time, and I had blissfully gotten on with the times. Now, I no longer need to keep those messages as they are memories that I do not wish to retain in that detail. But, the phone itself along with its data contents is a memoir of earlier and happier chapters of my life so far. So, I feel unsure of correct course of action to take here. I only need to use this handset for a few days, so is it worth deleting those contents or is it fair to want to keep a token of days past? Another struggle between the logical thing to do and what feels right.
It's like opening a box you forgot about that you didn't mean to find and had put away in the first place to stop past feelings from resurfacing. Now I don't know to put the box back or throw it away.
Have any of you had a similar experience? Leave your story in the comments, and stay tuned for more posts from the Sane Lunatic.
I bring this up because I recently had to go back to using an old nokia phone for one of my numbers as my smartphone had conked off, and it was from the pre-whatsapp days. Now, a lot has changed in my life since I last used that phone and I had forgotten the treasure trove of memories it was. It started with the boot up photo of an old love interest of mine, from the school days. I then was going through the message inbox, and saw hundreds of stored messages between me and my ex, from when the days were good, life felt complete and the world made sense.
As I glanced past the long list of messages, I could not help but feel a pang of pain of loss as I had near the time of parting. I hadn't felt that it in a long time, and I had blissfully gotten on with the times. Now, I no longer need to keep those messages as they are memories that I do not wish to retain in that detail. But, the phone itself along with its data contents is a memoir of earlier and happier chapters of my life so far. So, I feel unsure of correct course of action to take here. I only need to use this handset for a few days, so is it worth deleting those contents or is it fair to want to keep a token of days past? Another struggle between the logical thing to do and what feels right.
It's like opening a box you forgot about that you didn't mean to find and had put away in the first place to stop past feelings from resurfacing. Now I don't know to put the box back or throw it away.
Have any of you had a similar experience? Leave your story in the comments, and stay tuned for more posts from the Sane Lunatic.
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